Wondering for how so long I could have missed the possibility, to be free to be calm to believe in sunny shades of me.I wonder, wonder what I could have been? If I'd stayed sane, and not given in to the presssure that we made ourselves? To the the deceit that we couldn't help?
it's surprising, the feeling of serenity.
To feel calm, just with being me.
And to not break within the memories, and to wake up to the sunny shades.
I can see: colours so vibrant multifaceted, rising up from me. Welcoming, lifting me, drawing out the sunny shades I see.
Wondering for how so long I could have missed the possibility, to be free to be calm to believe in sunny shades of me.